Easter 2009

February
2010

Well, while looking through some photos my sister posted on www.walgreens.com for me to look at, I ventured into an album she had posted last year that was labeled Easter 2009. In a couple of clicks, a resurgence of energy overcame me that empowered me to know: I can finish this and Reach the End!! There it was, a photo of me and my sister, very cute picture, but what a difference I could see in the fullness of my face. Then it dawned on me........that was just a year ago.........what a far way I had come already..........there is no way I could stop now.

Sometimes, when you find yourself in a rut, you start to feel like that rut has been for years and years. For me, I have been feeling like the rut I have been in lately has been several years. Reality???..........it has been about 6 months!!!

Note to self, GET OVER IT!!!!!!!

Watch out! Here I come!

I'm trying not to get down and out about my, "diet for 6 days, fall off the wagon for 2", etc., etc. Also after the week of lunges and squats, tendonitis in my knees were very, very bothersome! So much so, it made just walking a half a mile a bit painful. (grrrrrrr)

Then I tried to get jump started with a soup based diet.........ahhnntt!....wrong. By the end of the week I was bummed. This week I've been trying again. Walked 2 days, dieted 2 1/2, now pretty disgusted but not wanting to completely go through with drowning my sorrow with any combo of salty then sweet.

Everything lately seems sooooooo hard!! Spring Fever? Need more sunshine? Up my antidepressant? Destined to be 200lbs. ? If there is anyone out there reading, please pray for me.

I resolve not to give up. 10 1/2 months until I turn 40.

I'm desperately reaching toward the end but it always seems to be looming a little more out of my grasp.